Wow. It hit me today that I've royally fucked myself. I left the life that I've always wanted to have, and now I don't have anything.
I want my old apartment back.
I want my old job back.
I want to be in my old band again.
I just want to go home.
Jesus Christ, I'm a fucking idiot, I can't believe I did this to myself. I've done some stupid things, but this far surpasses them all.
On the plus side, I did find the most badass place ever in Chico. As soon as the credit checks and whatnot go through it's mine. I'm happy about that. I guess right now I'm just going to try to block out everything that's been making me really depressed and focus on making Chico good.
But I'm still a fucking idiot.
1 comment:
Are you kidding me?
Believe me when I say that you made the right choice.
You will be done when you're 22.
That leaves you plenty of time to get even better at bass.
Keep in mind as well that you can always move back, and that nothing is permanent.
Maybe by the time you are done, if Photons is still going strong, there might be more line up changes that could benefit you.
Who knows right?
I mean, if we made it, and god forbid someone has to leave for whatever reason, I'm sure that Calvin would be willing to swap bass and pick up whatever instrument had been dropped. I'm not really sure if there is an instrument that Calvin doesn't know how to play.
You could even over time come to find something there in Chico that would sate your thirst for rock.
Plus, now I have somewhere to crash if I go to Chico, and I get to come visit you!
How cool is that?
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