Guys are way more effort than they're worth. No matter what I always end up emotionally invested in some dude who for whatever reason doesn't reciprocate.

"I'm leaving the country"

"I'm too crazy"

"You're too young"

"My ex is moving into our spare room"



EXCUSES.

Then when I meet a dude who is really into me, I'm usually not interested. I am completely tired of having to be on either end of rejection. I just want something to work for once, and I'm not willing to settle. Whatever. As far as my current situation I am totally taking my level of emotional commitment down a few notches. I can pretend this situation is different all I want, or that this one really gives a fuck, but it's not and he doesn't. It's not "special." As usual.

Blah blah blah.

Last night I went to this huge party that was in this clearing in the middle of nowhere. As in the whole place was surrounded in darkness and overgrown fields outside of our little circle of light.

Anyways, I met this dude named Curtis. Within five minutes of learning his name I suggested we explore the darkness and took him out in the middle of nowhere. It was a really cool scene, we layed in the grass and looked at the stars, just talking and listening to the party go on in the distance.

Point being, I don't remember shit about him and am wondering how to avoid him in the future without hurting his feelings. Yeah, I'm a bitch. Guess I deserve what karma serves me.